READ: Day One of the SOLO Devotional takes us to
Genesis 3:1-10. This is the story of the
serpent tempting Eve, her giving in, Adam giving in, and them hiding from God
because they ate of the fruit from the tree of the knowledge of good and evil
and were afraid because they knew they were naked.
THINK: I think that is probably the perfect way to
describe how this past week of counseling left me feeling: naked and afraid. As I typed that last part, thinking about
where I was going to go from there, the realization occurred to me that I have
been naked and afraid my whole life. The
only thing last week did was expose that to me.
For my whole life, I have been desperately trying to sew leaves together
to hide my nakedness from God.
Sometimes, I was unhappy with the way they looked and tried something new. Most recently, however, I had finally found
something that was working, because I had not been feeling exposed, or naked,
or afraid. Either that, or I had just
stopped trying because I wasn't really thinking about God's approval. (I'm not sure which, but I am confident God
will reveal it to me as I make this journey.
Probably when I least expect it, or when I want it the least, but
certainly His Timing will be perfect.)
PRAY: This section says: "There is no better
way to begin to understand God's Message than to grasp our separation from him
because of sin and our desperate need for him to reconcile our relationship.
Take some time to confess those areas where you have deliberately
rebelled against God."
I will spare you all
this part of me, as this is supposed to be between me and God, but I know the
list is going to be much longer than I am comfortable with. In just the little bit of time that I've been
thinking about what I would need to confess, I can tell that there are things
that are going to arise that I am going to have to take some time to deal
with. This just makes me feel more naked
and afraid. But, there is hope in the
that first sentence. Only God can
reconcile us to Himself. He has already
paved the way. It intrigues me that the
very thing that makes me feel so far away from God is what He chooses to use to
make me to see my deep, deep need for Him and to draw people closer to
The first blood ever
spilled on the Earth was a life taken to provide clothing for Adam and Eve, so
they could cover their shame. The last
blood ever spilled that could do that, and has done it for the rest of time,
was that of Jesus. (I'll just leave you
to ponder that one for a moment.)
LIVE: This section asks how it makes me feel
knowing that everyone on earth has rebelled against God. And to be honest, there have been many times
over the course of the past 3 years, that I have railed against Eve. What in the world could she have been
thinking? She had it good! Why'd she have to go and screw it up for the
rest of us? One day, someone offered up
a response to that question that stuck with me:
"If it hadn't been her, it would've been someone else?"
That begs the
question: then, why did God give us the
ability to choose? Or, as my 10-year-old
asked: "If God doesn't want us to
sin, then why doesn't he just get rid of Satan?
Then, He wouldn't have to worry about our sinning because there'd be
nobody around to make us sin." I
got the chance to explain it to him, but he didn't care for my answer. He genuinely seemed conflicted about it. He's not the first person, nor will he be the
last to wonder why God made it so darn easy for us to sin if He doesn't want us
The answer is: if He hadn't given us the ability to choose, we wouldn't have had a relationship. What God wants from/for us, more than anything, is a relationship. That is why we have to have the ability to choose. We have to be able to choose Him back!